Warrior Actualisation part 1 of 3: DMT (Dimethyltryptamine) kept popping up on my radar.

I don't just move around in nature.  I now move around at one with nature.
I am nature, I'm fully uploaded baby and can hear all that she brings;  the whispering of the leaves, the birds that are chirping and the bushes that sway in the wind.  When I walk, I feel at one with the earth through the soles of my feet. It’s as if I am now viewing the world through a newly discovered sensory system and I am fully engaged and plugged in. I am aware of this new found strength and where it will take me, a strength way beyond any physical foundation. Now when I teach, I teach from the heart and not just from the textbook.  

In the past, physically I had felt like a warrior.  I could fight, run anywhere barefoot, climb anything, adopt any crawl, carry others, blah, blah, blah. But when I looked deep enough and scratched away at the ego,  I soon discovered that all that physical strength was just armor. I was actually becoming sick. I had become a worrier, suffering emotionally and spiritually and hiding behind the physical façade. Yet I didn't gain this newfound self through so called strength and conditioning. In fact movement only played a small part.

So how did it happen, how did I make the transition from worrier to warrior?

2014 was a year full of changes and big challenges.  I closed the gym and left behind a toxic life with it.  I knew I needed to take a year out to work on myself.

I had a mini crisis and went on a self help, save myself mission to discover a new me, but strangely in that process, discovered the old me that had been forgotten over the years.

I started with positive affirmations, mindfulness and some meditation. I found the need to work on my mind, to clear all of the worry I had managed to create. No one advised me to do so, it was just something that I knew I had to do, and as a result, flipped a switch from protection to one of growth and in part started my journey into my awakening.

Armed with many a book under my belt and numerous Google searches, I had become quite curious about the pineal gland, A.K.A the third eye, as referred to in many a spiritual camps.  

I had read that flouride, found in tooth paste, tap water and various types of tea is actually a neurotoxin and is linked to calcifying the pineal gland, rendering it dysfunctional.  So out went the fluoride, no tap water, not even for bathing, no regular tooth paste and no tea.

I felt drawn towards eating sea vegetables and drinking chlorophyll,  all known for cleansing the pineal gland. I researched more and more and discovered sun gazing. Having the ginger gene, I had become so fearful of the sun, but had now discovered the true power of the sun, and all that it holds.  The sun has such amazing energy and healing potential, but like all of our physical needs, it requires a skill and it is a skill I have now feel I have honed and added to my Warrior protocols.

At both sunrise & sunset I started to gaze at the sun.  The first 45 minutes at sunrise and the last 45 minutes at sunset. You basically have a small window where the sun is at the most therapeutic phase.  This therapeutic Sun gazing stimulates melanin & melatonin, in other words if you want to sleep well and protect yourself from the sun, you stare at it.

I started delving a little deeper into the sun gazing and pineal gland protocols. DMT (Dimethyltryptamine) kept popping up on my radar.  The more I researched the more coincidences started to occur and within just a matter of days, I had been asked whether I had any experience with Ayahuasca, which if you don't know has been used for 5000 years as a medicine.

There are a number of stories surrounding Ayahuasca, but essentially it involves a leaf from one plant and the vine from another. In a big cauldron, the leaves and the vines are layered, over and over and then cooked and cooked for hours until reduced down to produce a thick syrupy drink. The taste of which, isn’t my most fondest of memories.

Ayahuasca is a psychotropic medicine that is used for physical, social, spiritual and emotional healing, depending on where you need to work or to be taken.  But to be taken, you have to be invited and you have to be prepared to go there, and as I discovered you have to learn to let go.

I found myself deeper and deeper involved and before I knew it. I was seriously considering traveling to Peru for my 40^th birthday. There I would stay in the Amazon with a shaman and drink Ayahuasca for one week. But something that I had read had stuck with me. Apparently, when you are ready and it is time, the Aya will call you.

So will I get my calling?

To be continued......